I don't need this right now

I don't need to doubt myself.

I don't need to feel guilty, for the unforgivable sin.

I don't need to lose control.

I don't need to feel like a jerk.

I don't need to worry about losing the one I love.


But most of all,

I don't want you to tell me everything is alright when it's not.

I don't want you to tolerate me, just because you love me.

I don't want you to sacrifice your emotions and hurt yourself for me.

I don't want you to worry about me.

I don't want you to be unhappy.

I don't want to see you cry.


Why do I always screw things up?


Sigh. But for now, I just need to concentrate and study.